Thanksgiving isn't so giving, is it.I've been needing to write in my "journal". But for some reason I haven't, or maybe I've been avoiding it? I'm not sure. It's only been.. around eight days I suppose. That ain't that bad right? I'm sad the free-sponsored-journals are going to be gone soon, assuming they're leaving once the movie is out, or a few days after the movie. I just don't know why websites want people to pay for it. I mean, they made the site, why can't they pay for it? Though it does make sense, since I'm using the site. Oh well. I'm glad the have an option to not pay, because I'm a tight-wad.

Well, new-found information. I found out I have a concert tonight. Why the hell did Mr. Moorman not remind me? Because he's a mean, mean, teacher. I'm still pondering whether I should play in high school or not. I really want to do some art, but music seems to over-rule all; Including my "studies". I'm seriously getting behind on art. Not that I have requests, it's just I'm not advancing like I should. I feel so inferior compared to a lot of y'all! I must get sketching... maybe later.

I'm so glad the weather was cold. But somehow it managed to get to around 80/90 degrees. Major sigh. I hate this fucking heat all the time. I sweat my ass off in class because they don't turn the AC on, to "save" money. Fuckers. They should get more money than this. Are we seriously in this shit hole everybody is talking about? Or am I blind and retarded? I don't know. But my family has no problem spending money, though dad comes home every single night bitching about how we spend so much. If my mom would get a job I'm sure we wouldn't be in so much debt. I know she's trying, but obviously not enough. Because we still are behind on some payments.

I just hope he isn't depressed when he doesn't get a Christmas bonus this year. We'll have to have a short budget Christmas this year. Not that I care, I just don't like seeing everybody in such a bad mood on Christmas day, or the holidays for that matter. My mom has this "bright" idea of giving our hard-earned money and gifts to children who don't get Christmas. In third-world countries and such. Not that they don't work, I may sound selfish, but I want our Christmas for us. Not some other family. There are families in our town that earn way more money than they need, and they don't donate shit. They just waste it on selfish children and on items/possessions that aren't necessities.

Selfish people seriously bother me. Though I may be selfish, I don't talk about myself all the time and all the items I have. I listen to everybody's shit all the time, but when I complain once, they ignore me like I'm nothing. I could shave my head and nobody would notice. Maybe one person would say, "Did you get a hair cut?" well no fuck. Jeez.. I'm sorry I'm ranting about how annoyed I am. But it's your choice whether you want to read my journal or not. I'm pretty sure this is for something art related, but I don't give a shit. I have no requests or many friends on here that have contests and clubs like a lot of people on deviantart do.